sabrina

alright. so, for those who dont know, i work as a waitress at a all american restaurant called Hard Times. And every wednesday night they have this event called "Wing Night" where their wings are half off. All the neighboring highschool kids come out of the woodwork to come and eat: in short, its our busiest night of the week. And since I get enough drama work every day of the week I only hostess on wing night.

So, its about 3 hours into the night, its crowded, everyones exhausted and there have been 2 walkouts so far, (basically when a customers walks out of paying the bill, which is harder so us to catch cause wing night is so crazy) One of the walkouts was a $80 check! So, me and the other host/manager are trying to make sure no one else walks out.

Well, in the back, one of my waiter friends tables (4 black dudes) is getting ready to "pay" thier check (they basically where walking around for like 10 mins round the restaurant which tipped us off theyre avoiding paying for the fuckin meal) I go to the back to recieve their check in my hand. while they walk out, I open it to realize they only put $8 out of $35. I yell out to them its not enough and they pretend not to hear me. So, I yell to the host/manager to meet them at the door...No sooner tha he started to walk over to them they bolted. and i mean like lighening!! My friend was right on their tail until they scattered...the crazy thing is only 3 of them ran, one guy still stayed. I stopped him and was like "wtf?" He claimed he didnt know his friends were gonna run, he was broke & wasnt gonna pay the rest nor tell the names of his buddies.

So we told him we were gonna call the police and settle the matter. So, you'd think that be the end of it right?...sadly no.

Inside the restaurant, a table of our regulars were discussing the 'fucked-up-ness' and for some reason, this other table of black guys get offended, curses them out & starts a fight!! chairs, tables falling down, one of our waiters gets punched & threatened with a knife!! Please keep in mind that there are still tables of other people around, watching all this. I was outside talking to my host friend when the fight broke out, when it finally was broken up the police came in.

Since two separate incidents happen, the cop was trying to get teh frist black guy who buddies ran out & get the brotha who started the fistfight. but for some reason, the fist fighter went craxzy and started threatening the cop! then to top it off he trys to run away down the isle were he is trampled on by 3 cops and out head manager to hold him down enough to hand cuff him!! meanwhile, fellow students and customers and calmoring over tables and chairs trying to see the action & taking cell phone pics!!! :P

Finally, they sudue the fistfighter and take them outside for questioning. I have to stay longer cause I was a witness to a good part of the action so i didnt end up leaving work till almost midnight! Thankfully, no one was hurt too bad but for some strange reasxon, after I clocked out I was talking to some of the cooks about what happened tonight and my nose started to bleed! i mean for like 10 mins I couldnt get it to stop. I suppose it was all the excitement that got to me but all & all this was the craziest night ever...maybe I should change jobs, what do you think?

i just got back from working one of the craziest night at my restaurant, Hard Times Cafe. we have this night called 'Wing Night' were are wings are 50% off. i usually just work mornings but they asked me to come in so i thought fine. basically all the highschool kids travel from miles around to come and eat on this night. and no, they just dont eat, they walk around blocking our way, yell, totally destroy the tables and cause nothing but havoc. anywoo, im a hostess so i had to watch the booth, reserve parties and clean all at the same time for a completey full restaurant...there was another histess tehre but since she too was a higschool student (oh joys of all joys) she spent a good amount of the time talking to her friends *grrr* you may be thinking, oh that sucks but oh, it gets better.

to top it all off, we of course, have a smoking room( the Alamo) where only 21 & up are allowed. so low and behold some black ghetto guys come in and just head straight for the Alamo without reserving a seat. I went into the room to ask them if they were over 21 & if they made a reservation. but these fuckers decide to pretend i dont exist and proceed to try and walk around the whole place as if they own it. i got in front of one asking him to please answer me and this piece of shit is like, "you need to get out of my way or else." fianlly, one of the servers told them to go ahead in but i had had enough. so i told them i was leaving and left. i cant believe someone is gonna try and threaten me for a fucking 'wing night' NOT COOL.

*sigh* all this night did was just remind me how much im not happy with my life right now. i want the job i went to college for...not this shit.

man, i practically had given up on writing on here, since trying to graduate when i was at southern. but since i'm all done with school & still trying to get my life together so many months later, i thought it was time to come back. for those who had duel pages you'd probably know that im moved to myspace (which sadly has turned me into a myspace freak!) but i realized i still do have friends here on LJ that i dont get to keep in contact who i really want to(hence my canadain friends ;)

anyhoo, basically, if i haven't written or been able to catch up with some of you its because i dont have a way of contacting you. but as a catch up into whats up with me, there's not really too much to say. I graduated (FINALLY) and was ready to take my degree in graphic design and put to some good use. I started out with applying to ALOT of places and getting some interviews. I've been flown out to a couple of places, but basically the final verdict for everyone is: they love me work but i dont have enough EXPERIENCE. *sigh* no one knows how tired i am of hearing that :P so, after 5 months of dilgently searching for a job i decided to settle for 2 around here in MD in order to save up money for what i'm to do next. only i don't know what the hell that is :P

so, for this new year, i made myslef a pact: if i didn't find a job or intership by march, i'm moving to CA & going to school. what school you ask? why the San Fransisco School of Art of course:) i am ready for my young adult life to begin, on my own, WITHOUT parents, starting my OWN life. so we will see what happends, but in any case its good to be back. and i wish you all a great weekend.
Brina

p.s canadianlinz & skepticbeliever, did you guys recieve anything from me recently? hope so :P

i should have done this a long time ago but with school starting up for me again i havent had a chance to just sit down and write. this entry is dedicted mainly to one of my closest friends who just recently moved and had a birthday just yesterday(mr. 23 year old;)

in case you dont kno who this person is its my buddy Yos(haha, j/k!) JOS:)

jos just recently left about 2 to 3 weeks ago (it actually seems longer)
to continue his dutch life in the sunshine state of california. the lucky bastard. saying goodbye to him was wierd cause ever since i knew him, i have known that since he was a grade above me he would leave. but the actual act of him leaving didnt really hit me till this summer and when i actually have to do it face-to- face. i remember back in my sophmore year he would always tried to joke around and trick me into believeing he was leaving earlier or going to another school or something and like the gulliable girl i am, i would fall for it(sorta:P)

but actually saying bye to him at his car before he left was just all too real. its on my list of one of the hardest things ive had to do, i mean i know ill see him later but it still sucks, you know. there are certain moments in your life when the shifting winds of change can literally be felt, like you can pinpoint were it started to change. that was one of those moments, cause it symbolize to me that things at southern were gonna change; like hanging out with my art friends and the "lucky 7", that this was my own senior year and the things of the norm that used to be for me at southern are no more. many of these changes im still trying to cope with.

this year is gonna be hard for me, i can see it already. not only becuase its my senior year but im taking 18 credits and still at the sucky dorm:P and im still not sure if animation is what i what to do with my life. not to mention my personal junk..

*sigh* oh the woes of college life.

anyways, jos, if your reading this,(since your one of the few that do:) just wanted you to know your friendship has made a difference in my life and thankfully its for the good;) oh, and before i forget again...Happy Belated Birthday!(or birfday as i say it;P)

well im about to get kicked out of the art department, good nite one and all.

happy july!

i know, its july 3rd. i should have said it earlier, but ive been preoccupied lately. anyways, yesterday was one of those days when you wonder if its coincidence or fate that takes your where you go.

so heres the story:
the beggining of the day was kinda of a downer for me. ive been pretty stressed lately over things at home. moving on, so id been inside all day until my dad asked me if i wanted to go with him and my mom out. we've been trying to find a gym to belong to since we've moved and my and dad i found a pretty nice one the other day. so he wanted to show my mom the place to see what she thought. i didnt really want to go back to the gym but i desparately wanted out of the house so i went.

afterwards, we went to eat and decided to make a stop at the local Borders bookstore before heading home. so i was in the music section listening to foo fighters new CD trying to decide if i want it when i feel like someone is watching me...you know the creepy feeling. so i slowly turn around, (not trying to seem too obivious so i could catch the person in the act) and in the other CD aisle i see a pair of boys eyes staring at me. at first, i was like whos this kid..but for some reason he seemed vaguely familar to me.

so i finished listening to my song and went in for a closer look, which the boy did the same. then he was like, "sabrina? is that you?" and then i remembered, his name was david karsh. he was one of my friends (more like friend of a friend) from my highschool TA. he was two grades below me so he just finished his freshman year of college (that made me feel so old:p) after we said a few pleasantries, i asked him what was he doing here... he said he was looking for a present for one our our good friends kitty cause it was her 19th birthday. i was like oh my gosh,i hadnt talked to kitty in two years. so he was about to leave when davy asked me if i wanted to go with him to kitty's party...i was like "hell yeah!".

so, we reach kitty's house and he tells me to wait behind the corner of the house to make it a suprise. boy, was she! so, im at her house with about half of her indian family everywhere feeling "alittle" out of place when i see some of my friends from my class. we talked about old times and whos married, who has a baby and who isnt married but has a baby;)

so, all and all it was a great nite and to think if i wasnt at Borders at the exact same time davy was it would have never happen. talk about fate huh?

well, i gotta go, were having a whole bunch of people over for the annual crarey barbaque and my mom and i need to start cooking:)

HAPPY EARLY 4TH EVERYONE!

hey boys and girls.

you know that 80's song "oh what a night"? that phrase fits perfectly with the night i just had. you see, briani is still unfortunatly jobless so my good friend, jovan decided to help me get alittle cash on the side till i do. she works at this club in Baltimore, MD that just opened up there. its called One, its a pretty nice club; chic and upscale. no jeans-wearing, t-shirt- shorts kinda place:)its has 4 floors named after different elements: earth, water, fire and wind(go captian planet!)

so anyways, she's the cashier and coatcheck girl and offered me to fill in for her every once in awhile to make to extra dough. so last night, i accompanied her to da club. let me tell you, when people get drunk, they get DRUNK. people were hitting up against wall, yelling, swearing and slurring all over the place:)but that was most on the earth floor, upstairs on fire it was pretty nice. i boogied alittle and basically went back and forth hanging with jovan at the cashier's box and checkin out the place.

so, the club closed around 2am and me and jovan are famished! so, she takes me to this sushi/dance hall japanese place to eat. man, the sushi there was great (i had veggie and california rolls, no octopus for me:P) and the dance hall was playing some pretty sweet techno beats so we decided to shake our thing on the dance floor:) we danced with this group of pretty fly girls and this one asain guy named ray. he made up this game of clapping to the music to keep us girls in beat but it made me feel like we were flaminco dancing;) so, ray's askin me and jovan where we're from and i say columbia (as in columbia,MD) but for some reason(he was alittle tipsy) he thought i meant from the actual columbia! so, he was tryin to talk alittle spanish to me, it was funny. im glad he was dancing with us though these other thugs where trying to hit on me and my friends, we barely missed getting assalted on the dance floor!...oh well, the price you pay for being beautiful;)

all in all, i had a pretty great night. ill be going with jovan agian sometime soon to better aquaint myself with things at the club b4 i fill in for her, i hope the nights are as nice as this one. well, im pooped kids. gotta go and get some beauty sleep.

lata playas.

hello?


is anyone there?


briani, the missing LJ writer has returned!


...i know what your thinking," didnt she say she didnt want to LJ anymore? didnt she say she didnt have time?" well yeah, i did say those things cause at that time i did. now, i have more time on my hands..(alittle more than im used to:)and i have things to say, so here i am. ( and also from the avid persuasion of my friend and yours: junkebunke:)

life has been interesting in these past weeks since i got out of school. im in a new home, in a new neighborhood and for the most part i like it alot. the house is bigger, my room is better than my former diminutive dwelling space, and the neighbors are much nicer (and nosier but thats ok;) but the best thing to me about living where i live is whats outside my door... behind my house are all these little paths that lead into the ajoining nieghborhoods and to the woodland area behind them all; complete with creeks and a great big lake. ive always loved nature so this is a paradise for me! and i get to use the walk ways as my excerise which is even better;)

the only down side about living here is that there are so many more people (we live about 10mins. from a major highway) and soo many more teenagers looking for a job same as me. so, needless to say, finding a job have been alittle tough for me right now:P and i need money! so, looks like im gonna have to start running an underground drug dealing business...*sigh* i didnt think it had to come to this. anyways i have 4 more applications to send out this week, so i hope somebody calls my ass. they see theyll call and they never do...:)

anyways, though its good to be back in my maryland, i miss being around my friends: junkebunke, forkintheeye, princess twinkie, skepticbeliever, canadianlinz and those who arent on LJ:) things are going to be so different this coming year, so many people will be graduating, (im not sure if ill have to stay another semester) some have already graduated...i dont know, i like change but when it envoles friends going away, me no like it anymore! but i guess we all have to grow up sometime(or at least see if our education from southern will get us a job:P)

well, its already 11:15 and im pooped. i had an old highschool friend over and we stayed up till 5am friday nite and stayed up till 3am saturday...i feel like a fly on a windsheild...

well, im outtie. hasta pasta playas.

P.S happy belated birfday to forkintheeye!!!

P.S.S and im glad you love your graduation gift jos, and no, ill never tell you where i got it!if your frined wants to know, we'll dicuss it in private;)

P.S.S.S stellarbrat! dont think i forgot about you, welcome to the world of LJ:)

i've been thinking things over and i think im not going to have a live journal anymore. i dont have time to write and keep up with everyone else, im not really feeling this anymore. anyways, off to church. later.

i was looking at other peoples journals and i found this test, which era are you really from? its pretty cool, i found out im an 80's kid, duh!!





what decade does your personality live in?


quiz brought to you by lady interference, ltd

hey guys,
update on the time and transportation are here! junkebunk and i talked decided since the samaritan center opens at 10am so we should be in front of the store around 9:40-50.

so that means we need to meet in front of wright hall at 9:15 AM so we all could carpool in andy and britt's car. (hope andy and britt dont mind;) anyways, thats the plan, if there are any questions or comments please dont hestitate to call:) or better yet, post a comment.

hope you guys are having fun camping, and hope you get safely back.

its been a long time since ive written huh?

ive been pretty busy with alot of other things in my life lately, so much change is going on around me here (at my college) and at my home. my family is moving to another part of maryland and we're finally going to have a house, not the townhouse we live in now but a real home. though i will accept the arguement that any place you feel comfortable in is home.

i also have been trying to figure out my scheldule for next school year, it will be my fourth year next fall and i want to try and graduate on time. my problem is there are alot of classes i still have left to take:P my friend andy, or as you LJ owners know him: forkintheye, was helping me figure it all out today.

its funny how we try so hard to get out of school but dont know what to do with ourselves when we get there...i, for one, am not too pressed about staying in school. the more education i get, the more choices, freedom and opportunities ill have to be what i want to be in life. and plus, i dont want to go into the "real world" until i feel i am ready...

ive never really been on my own. what i mean is ive been by myself out in the world, but ive always had someone helping me, some kind of financial safety net if you will. its not like i want to depend on people forever(im a very independant person)much less my parents, but im so afraid of failure and ruining my life that i dont want to take any chances of prematurely thinking ive got it all "figured out" cause i know i dont... hell, i dont even who i fully am and what i truely believe...but im getting ahead of myself.

what i mean by the "truely believe" part is that ive been thinking, reading and pondering what i truely believe in life. right now, i am a christian and a raised 7th-day adventist. i accepted this doctrine even more by getting baptised at 17. but recently, ive been face with the thousand of questions everyone asks themselves: why do i believe in God? is there really a God? and if there is, why do i believe he is the christian God? why do i believe what i believe? why believe anything at all?

i used to have fast, easy simple answers for these questions but i guess i myself cant accept them anymore...i can no longer stay calm and content in my "comfort zone" of blind faith. i must discover for myself what i believe and why i believe it. i need to understand why i want to believe in God, and not just any God, but a all-powerful, all-knowing, all-loving God. i think that anyone who trys to stand behind any belief should be willing to do this. be willing to seek the truth, even if its the answer you dont want.

well, i gotta go. until next time..ill be writing updates on attempting to answers these questions.

hey everyone.

i know this sounds bad but im in my room right now instead of being at church..but hey im listening to christian music and have God on the brain, i think thats good enough:) just because a person goes to chruch every sabbath, doesnt mean theyre doing it for the right reason. ive known so many people who go to chruch for all the wrong reasons: to impress others, because their family does, to show off their new chruch outfit, to gossip with friends, the list goes on. when i go to church, i go to gain a blessing from being with fellow worshipers and to get a blessing from the pastor.

anyways, enough of that:) im trying to decide what to do today...my close friend i normally hang out with is camping this weekend with her bf (now you see why i didnt want to go:) so ill have to find some other friends to chill with, or choose the loner road. whichever is fine for me, im pretty self-sufficient. i dont have to be around people all the time to survive. being alone at times doesnt bother me, its the thought of being alone forever that does... its especially hard to be ok with being single here at southern.

EVERYONE has someone, or it appears so. you see them hugging, holding hands, making out and basically humping each other right in front of you:P btw, the thing i cant understand about couples at southern..if you have a car to get off campus why dont you!? why stay in the southern parking lot, fogging up your windows doing only-God-knows-what. why dont you and your tonsil-hockey buddy DRIVE to a place a good distance away from southern so campus safety doesnt have to catch you and so you dont have to make up some lame excuse why you guys are "talking" without your clothes on.(true story from a campus safety friend of mine:)

moving on, its hard not to feel the pang of loneliness being here. when you see so many people "happy" in their relationships, you start to wonder why you dont have one, or more thoughtfully, why doesnt anyone want me? then you start to second guess yourself, and go down the spiral of questioning: is there anything about me thats undesireable? is it my personality? my beliefs? morals? is it the way i carry myself? is it my hair?? its my hair, isnt it! oh man, i knew i shouldve dyed it!!! but which color: blonde, brown, red?? which ONE?!?!?!

haha...sorry went alittle overboard there. im sure nobody goes to that extent.(lets hope not)

but seriously, its hard not to feel like theres something wrong with you being the reason no one wants to date you. well, ive been there, done that and ive come to a conclusion:
theyres just nobody here at southern for me. you see, im a black chick who isnt like the "typical black girl", im a liberal, laidback, crazy/silly chick, and im from the north. im pretty different from most of the people that go to this school, so finding someone similar to me is like finding a needle in a haystack. and plus, being in the south most people arent really into dating interracially (which is a whole other topic i wont get into now, would take too much time:)or are just afraid to consider it and since im not "the typical black gril", most of my brothers dont know how to treat me so that rules out alot of people for me.

so i satisfy myself with the thoughts that southern is not my only option, i have my whole life ahead of me and that my soul mate is somewhere in california waiting for me:)

so to all you southern couples(not including my friends who are couples;) i say poo to you. my time for a seroius relationship will come and until then its the joys of a single life for me! well, im off to the shower, peace.

its 12:41 am and im still up..but hey what else is new:) i just got back from brock, and i finally finished all of my blocking for our animation..YEAH! its looks real good with all the other blocking playblasts, our story's really coming together.

anyways, today i got some good news:) there is this rock/techno/spiritual/funky/emo type group i like called Sigur Ros. there from iceland and sing in it too. i know what your thinking, why listen to music you cant understand? yeah, i dont understnad a lick, but this music is more than words. it transcends, rather breaks the language barriers(bear with me, its almost one in the morning)well, moving on, ive seen them before in concert at atlanta and let me tell you, it was one of the best concerts i've EVER been to.

so, naturally when i heard that they will be playing in ATL again, i jumped at the chance to see them. but i have one problem...i have no car! sad, but true. for about 2 weeks, ive been asking people to go with me but no one could do it. then finally..hope...my totally funkadelic friend john said we'll go. im so overjoyed,i am a concert chic all the way. you wanna make my night, take me on a date? take me to a concert and ill be satisfied:)

anways, im beat. its time for to dream of sugar plums and puppy dogs(actually of riding lions in the african safari) good night one and all.

man my college and its protical never ceases to surprise or enrage me...we have this student body meetings, (or convocations) every thrusday for which we recieve credit(and have to pay insane amounts of money if we dont).

anyways, im rushing to get out of my painting class (cleaning brushes and such) so i can make the 10-15 min walk all the way across the campus to make it to this convocation.. so as im right in arm length of the building the clock chimes the hour, 11am. i figure, hey, im only 1/2 a minute late, they'll give me a card to let me have credit for halling my ass(which is a nice one i'd say, more on that later;) over there. so i get inside and the ticket holders are like, theres no more..NO MORE!! this is exactly why i dont even bother going half the time becuase there so anal about things...

so im about to leave down the steps when some girl asks me and some other friends with me for our name. i about to say none of your business when i see one of the "campus safety" head officals come up acting like hes a REAL cop, asking for our ID cards. what the hell! what are we, in a prison?! are we criminals that need our ID cards checked!! man, stuff like that makes me ill, i hate that southern thinks they have a right to attempt to control all points of your life. i'm trying to leave cause i cant get credit for this stupid thing!

but i decided to stay cause i didnt feel like dealing with the fake safety cop. *grrr* hopefully if i talk to mrs. dietrich
(whos in charge of the convocation cards) i can get her to let me have credit. anyways, im starving, im going get some food. lata playas.

wow..here i am. writing in my journal for the first time.. pretty sweet. im in the art department here at southern, listening to techo-club music with two of my fellow LJ friends: forkintheeye and junkebunk. finally well get some soul into this livejournal world ;)

anyways, moving on, today is wednesday, the hump of the week as they say. im looking forward to the weekend so i can get some real rest. im a night-owl during the week, so i usually dont get ....my "friend" jos is getting me back for looking over his shoulder while he was writing his entry.. i wasnt "looking" just glancing, he really has it all wrong, in fact jos is a delusional dutch boy:)

ANYWAYS, as i was saying..i usually to go to sleep til 1 or 2 am, either i have alot of work to do(animation and such) or im watching scrubs or some other tv show online or playing free cell or spider solitare. my name is sabrina and yes, im a computer games addict.

*sigh* looking at some london pictures online and remembering how much i miss europe...big ben, the effiel tower, the queen's court...being there was bloody wonderful!

well, i guess thats enough for today. i gotta go and work on a cubism painting. hasta pasta!